Inspiration galore.

Many things have been inspiring me lately, even this song, so I wrote something and included the song.




There are those that care, and those that care less. Draw a fine line and separate the pools. Like the scales one will tip and weigh out the other. It's a matter of who you surround yourself with, and those you let close in as to what makes you what you are later on in your life.
Hatred or love.
Dark or light.
Day or night.
Everyone seems to think that is all there is to someone. You are either the evil sadist or the poor masochist.
Few,
Few prefer to walk the line in between. Be the one that makes you want to love them despite the hate, be the grey dusk that makes you lower in comfort and readiness for sleep, in the arms of one you know does not hate or love, but you are comforted.
Do you know that feeling? When the person leaves, pauses, but does not look back you know. It was not out of love or hate not because they are one or the other, but because they are that pillar.

Don't look back. Go. Despite doubt, that pillar will stand far longer then any weight on a scale.

Hrm.

Penis....


that will be all



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Me)

Lyrics in my head right now

ALL WE WANT IS A HEADRUSH
ALL WE WANT IS TO GET OUT OF OUR SKIN FOR A WHILE
WE HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE BECAUSE WE DON'T HAVE ANYTHING
ANYTHING WE WANT ANYWAY...
WE USED TO HATE PEOPLE
NOW WE JUST MAKE FUN OF THEM
IT'S MORE EFFECTIVE THAT WAY
WE DON'T LIVE
WE JUST SCRATCH ON DAY TO DAY
WITH NOTHING BUT MATCHBOOKS AND SARCASM IN OUR POCKETS
AND ALL WE ARE WAITING FOR IS FOR SOMETHING WORTH WAITING FOR
LET'S ADMIT AMERICA GETS THE CELEBRITIES WE DESERVE
LET'S STOP SAYING "DON'T QUOTE ME" BECAUSE IF NO ONE QUOTES YOU
YOU PROBABLY HAVEN'T SAID A THING WORTH SAYING
WE NEED SOMETHING TO KILL THE PAIN OF ALL THAT NOTHING INSIDE
WE ALL JUST WANT TO DIE A LITTLE BIT
WE FEAR THAT POP-CULTURE IS THE ONLY CULTURE WE'RE EVER GOING TO HAVE
WE WANT TO STOP READING MAGAZINES
STOP WATCHING TV
STOP CARING ABOUT HOLLYWOOD
BUT WE'RE ADDICTED TO THE THINGS WE HATE
WE DON'T RUN WASHINGTON AND NO ONE REALLY DOES
ASK NOT WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR YOUR COUNTRY
ASK WHAT YOUR COUNTRY DID TO YOU
THE ONLY REASON YOU'RE STILL ALIVE IS BECAUSE SOMEONE
HAS DECIDED TO LET YOU LIVE
WE OWE SO MUCH MONEY WE'RE NOT BROKE WE'RE BROKEN
WE'RE SO POOR WE CAN'T EVEN PAY ATTENTION
SO WHAT DO YOU WANT
YOU WANT TO BE FAMOUS AND RICH AND HAPPY
BUT YOU'RE TERRIFIED YOU HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER THIS WORLD
THING TO SAY AND NO WAY TO SAY IT
BUT YOU CAN SAY IT IN THREE LANGUAGES
YOU ARE MORE THAN THE SUM OF WHAT YOU CONSUME
DESIRE IS NOT AN OCCUPATION
YOU ARE ULTIMATELY THRILLED AND DESPERATE
SKYHIGH AND FUCKED
LET'S STOP PRAYING FOR SOMEONE TO SAVE US AND START SAVING OURSELVES
LET'S STOP THIS AND START OVER
LET'S GO OUT-LET'S KEEP GOING
THIS IS YOUR LIFE-THIS IS YOUR FUCKING LIFE
WE NEED SOMETHING TO KILL THE PAIN OF ALL THAT NOTHING INSIDE
QUIT WHINING YOU HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG BECAUSE FRANKLY
YOU HAVEN'T DONE MUCH OF ANYTHING
SOMEONE'S WRITING DOWN YOUR MISTAKES
SOMEONE'S DOCUMENTING YOUR DOWNFALL


I had it out with someone I really truly gave a shit about, over crap. I said one thing to her that brought this song into my head....Here is what I said:
[23:08] Absynth Narayan: this is my second fucking life(tm) and damnit i am not going to have bullshit and stress unneeded in it. THIS is why I have reverted to complete and utter roleplay in here unless i deem fit to let someone get into my first life emotions. And that is few and faaarrrr between. THIS is why i tend to not wander into the outside world of SL(tm). Because it is full of assholes that are lying deceitful manipulative peices of shit that claim "My rl and my sl are zen" no it is not, you know why? Because in rl if I would see Luc or Vic on the streets pulling the shit with me and you they are pulling here i would fucking dragon kick them into the milky way. And I bet in RL they wouldnt do this shit because they know someone out there has their number and they are playing the end game

To be spanish or not to be....?

[0:14] Denalius Vhargon: ((you guys are brutal - and I thought Naraka was tough. Sheeeesh))
[0:14] Kyra Nemeth: (( Never play with tick-tocks and tinmen, love.))
[0:14] Kyra Nemeth: (( no hearts))
[0:16] You: ((Lol! Oh but we are really sweet with a sour punch))
[0:17] You: ((I take that as a compliment since Narakas title bears "Ultraviolence" sim))
[0:18] Anyanka Bisiani: (( hell yeah ))
[0:18] Kyra Nemeth: ((and yet no milk bar))
[0:18] You: ((Lol Ky.))
[0:18] Strisciare Dallagio lay there cradling his shredded hand, too in shock to go into the hysterics his body probably would have. Breath quick and shallow, body shaking, eyes dazed. The muscles in his feet still rippled with the thought of running but his body lay there and his mind had all but blacked out with the shock.
[0:19] Anyanka Bisiani: (( Think we should have one? >.>))
[0:19] Kyra Nemeth: ((maybe for a clockwork orange event))
[0:19] You: ((A milk bar? ))
[0:19] Anyanka Bisiani: (( Yeah, a milk bar >.> but ooo, clockwork orange..))
[0:19] You: ((I want the big Peen statue!))
[0:20] Strisciare Dallagio: ((I know you can buy those mannequins somewhere))
[0:20] Kyra Nemeth: ((please tell me that didn't get missed?... a little bit of the ultraviolence... a refreshing glass at the milk bar?))
[0:20] Kyra Nemeth: ((o.o))
[0:21] Anyanka Bisiani: (( yo quiero el queso?))
[0:21] You: ((que?))
[0:21] Strisciare Dallagio: ((don't forget a bit of the ol' Ludwig Van))
[0:21] Anyanka Bisiani: (( tu mama tambien?))
[0:21] You: ((que?))
[0:21] Anyanka Bisiani: (( la grande cabesa?))
[0:21] You: ((que?))
[0:22] Anyanka Bisiani: (( chupa mi choca?))
[0:22] Strisciare Dallagio: ((el queso esta malo. Giggity))
[0:22] Anyanka Bisiani: (( rofl ))
[0:22] You: ((Que?))
[0:23] Denalius Vhargon: ((Giggity Giggity Goo - Quagmire rocks!))
[0:23] Anyanka Bisiani: (( is it my pose? >.>))
[0:23] Kyra Nemeth: ((lol... alright alright.. before we have to slap a -spanish lang.- tag on the sim))
[0:23] You: ((Iono))
[0:23] Anyanka Bisiani: (( ROFL ))
[0:23] Anyanka Bisiani: (( La dissonance'ee'ah))
[0:23] You: ((que?))
[0:24] Anyanka Bisiani absolutely dies.))
[0:24] Strisciare Dallagio: ((*crying laughing))
[0:24] Denalius Vhargon: ((My sides hurt!!))
[0:24] Kyra Nemeth: ((eh you'll live))
[0:24] Anyanka Bisiani: (( I wonder what happens if you collect rain water and drink it ))
[0:24] Kyra Nemeth: (( and hey if you don't... new fur rug for ky -thumbs up-))




.....Yeah it was at the wee hours, and after alot of RP we needed the slap happy break.

Pride!!

So, here is a shot featuring not only one of Aevalahs talented fountains but also the AIDs walk. Haven't been to SLs PRIDE event? I would. Lots to see, lots to do, much to learn if you do not already know. This is definitely one of the more purposeful events SL can throw in my opinion. So I will be there alot when my creative kick slows.

"What is straight? A line can be straight, or a street, but the human heart, oh, no, it's curved like a road through mountains."

Wow, just....wow

It has been one of those weeks, a week of...well shit. It's been crazy.

I think it all is winding down though but it never fails, stupid people still don't quit. I guess stupidity isn't something you can just expect people to stand back and realise. "Hey! Wow, if I did this, I would look...stupid...laughable....foolish."

I get IM'd while djing by this girl wanting 300 dollars or she gets put out in the street. I tooka bit to respond because I was still reading over this like. "Wow...just...no way....just...300L$? -blink- Wow, -rereads- no, she is asking for 300 RL money. Like USD...just...holy shit. Which I respond to with just the same amount of sarcasm and speech I would give to anyone I don't know asking me for 300.00. "I have me to take care of I have nothing for you." Then when it comes to a game, you are on a game asking this question. "Log off the computer and go find a job! Duh."

Like seriously. I am still shocked, yeah. -walks off-

Vogue me betch!

So, net issues make me want to rip my hair out, wanna know what else does? Making poses. Yes a new endeavor I had to try, that is what SL is about doing things you can't do in RL for some, letting your creativity flow and the beauty you make available to others to wear, try, visit, explore.

One thing I have learned this past week. DCS is great, but it is a hassle. Can we say not user friendly mmkay?

Another thing, maybe it is my patience. Gestures are annoying. You got to shop somewhere and all you here is "LOLOLOLOLOL hehehehe, Lookat me! I am an attention whore! And guess what?! Neko, so unique." Eyeroll. I come to SL to be creative, not something you see daily hence my creative endeavors.

Which leads me into doing poses. I was supposed to use this program for texture mapping, maybe making higher quality skins with less chance of seams, same for clothes. I started playing...Next thing you know I am making a pose that leads me to a creative idea of a couples pose I have not seen out there yet. Something that shows force, like a standstill tango of male and female. Force yet sensuality.

Yeah, I pose the figure the program provides and awesome you can move all down to the fingers which I spent all of 3 hours positioning the figure to perfection. Guess what? Thank you SL(tm) for not allowing that figure to function. >.> I find out I have to get LL character maps to load in but no guide as to how to do this. Another 2 hours later I figure it out. Not load by drag and drop into the program you just file and import. Dur. Either I am stupid or just to anal for simplicity.

Model loaded, I cant move all the joints like I could on the other. Ever wonder why many of your avatars are stiff in pose on some poses? Thats why. You cant move all the joints to work like a human body nor the fingers. I am sorry but I hate the unnatural splayed or fisted fingers sl provides in poses -.-. I forsee more migraines ahead, but...I actually like doing this and am hoping I can eventually provide something of unique quality that people love to see. :)